Viability

     Today I am officially 24 weeks pregnant which means that if my baby girl were born today she would have a 50% or greater chance of surviving.  That percentage increases about 2-3% per day until 26 weeks, when she has a 90% chance of survival.  I'm not one to be fond of statistics, since they usually work against me, but for right now I'm going to embrace these numbers and enjoy my pregnancy for awhile, even if only for a few hours. 

     Baby girl is doing great!  She is growing on schedule and is getting stronger by the day. I know this because it seems each day I feel her kicks more and more, and I'm even able to watch my stomach move now!  I love feeling her move and love each new thing I experience with her. However, it makes me so sad to know that I never had these things with the triplets.  I can't help but compare these two pregnancies (which for the record carrying 1 is so much easier than 3) and being sad that I couldn't hold them in longer.  I miss them so much and it's so hard to be happy knowing things could change with this pregnancy at any moment. I am definitely more confident now that I am further along than last time, but after attending so many support group meetings and hearing so many stories of loss I am all too aware that things can go wrong at any week, even birth.  I'm trying not to think about that, but sometimes I just find it so hard to believe that in a few short months I could be holding a living baby girl. 

     I haven't been blogging much because it's just too hard for me.  I'm not doing weekly updates, or taking weekly pictures, or talking about this pregnancy too much.  I did all that with the triplets and it just feels so wrong to do it again.  But this baby is alive right now, and deserves all the love and attention she can get, so I will leave you with a picture and some information:

 

21 weeks with Triplets                                                21 weeks with Baby Girl

 



*Her name has been decided!  Michael and I just know it's perfect for her and are keeping it a secret for right now.

*She is a little sister and has 3 beautiful guardian angels in heaven watching over her.  She will grow up knowing about her big brothers and sister.

*Her room will have a subtle whimsical theme, light blue walls with lots of light pink accents. 

*She is due on February 19, 2014.

*Her daddy can feel her kick!