A New Project

I am still mourning the loss of my three children, and always will be, but my grief has taken a new turn in the past few weeks.  I have been working on a project that will both honor Ryker, Tommy and MaryElizabeth while at the same time help other grieving families.  This project is very important to me and if nothing else I hope you will read through my website (especially the letter on the events page) and help spread the word.  I’m still adding content, but feel like I’m ready to share it with all of you.  Thank you!

http://cuddlesfromrtm.com/

Sweet Potatoes

     Do you think she likes it?

 

Teething and Swimming

     Last night was a rough one.  We've been noticing signs that Lila is teething, but last night confirms it.  The poor girl was so tired but kept waking up in pain.  Watching her toss and turn, crying, was so hard to watch.  I just wanted to take her pain away.  We tried everything:  a bottle, cold teething rings, whiskey, rocking her, Raffi and finally in bed with us.  Nothing worked and we both ended up sleeping on the couch where she finally cried herself to sleep.  And when she woke up this morning, the first thing she did was give me the biggest smile, as if saying she was sorry and loves me!

    On a happier note, I think Lila enjoyed her first time swimming.  She definitely didn't know what to think at first, but never cried.  She took it all in, and enjoyed swimming with Daddy, Caitlyn and Grandma.  Of course, I had to dress her all cute in her pink bikini and hat.  And everyone needs a cute cover cup (thank you, Danielle!), so Lila was dressed for the occasion.  Lila though, preferred to be naked and I just hope she didn't pee in Grandma's pool!  Here are a few of the thousand or so pictures I took:

 

Sneak Peak

Lila went swimming for the first time yesterday.  This isn't a great picture but I love her eyes!  More to come tomorrow. 

5 months

Today Lila turned 5 months!  She is starting to get a personality and is interacting more with us. She had quite a few first this month including her first boat ride, first time at the beach and first time using her doorway jumper. At 5 months Lila:

thinks fake sneezes by mommy are the funniest thing ever. 

can roll both ways, but struggles with tummy to back. 

sleeps on her belly. 

definitely knows who mommy and daddy are. 

is happiest in the morning. 

loves playing with toys. 

found her feet and is constantly grabbing both at the same time. 

loves attention. 

I just love this little girl so much!

More Firsts

Today, Lila and I had lots of first together.

Lila's first lunch on the beach, Mommy's first time feeding a baby on the beach! (LBI, Surf City)

Lila's first nap in the awesome tent Daddy bought, and Mommy's first nap on the beach with her daughter.

 

Lila's first boat ride!  And Mommy and Daddy's first time going on the boat with an infant!

 

 

Lila's first tree swing ride!  And Mommy's first time pushing her daughter in a swing.  She wasn't full of smiles, but she didn't cry so all is good!

I love Lila so, so much. But every time we have a first I can't help but wish I had these firsts with Ryker, Tommy and MaryElizabeth.  I love all 4 of my children so, so much. 

My New Favorite Picture